The girls...

Hannah is doing well everywhere else, but not here. She comes home and it's like all the rules are not in place. She doesn't really care about getting into trouble. I don't understand this, and now Isabelle is learning how to be disrespectful and disobedient as well. I'm just getting a bit frustrated and don't really know what to do with them anymore. Discipline only goes so far.
Isabelle has a stubborn rash that I had to get a prescription for. So now she has to actually sit still for a minute while I put it on. Hopefully it makes the rash go away...
I signed Jordan up for a magazine cover contest and she is a finalist. So I said, "what the heck" and put in her pictures to a modeling agency. Now I can do it for all my kids and they would more than likely get at least one offer. There are SO many times that I am told they are beautiful. Just haven't gotten a good picture of them lately. They're always moving and dancing or at school or doing something and won't hold still long enough for me to get a good picture. Maybe I'll get a pro to do theirs... Hmm...

Lance is FINALLY starting to listen adn he is truly growing. It's SO exciting to see the growth in him. I know I was happy and excited when I finally chose to do what the Lord asked of me and listen but to see this stubborn man let go is amazing. Truly amazing. God is so wonderful and I'm so glad that He's changing our hearts and minds. There is no better way. More to write later. Now to start dinner. :)

Jordan walking

Jordan wants to walk. She is 17 months old. She will only walk when I'm holding her hands or around a table. Her left foot turns in when she steps. I don't know if it's painful for her, but I've decided to wait out the month in frustration for her dr appt. I really wonder, however, if she really should see him now... I'd love to get her in, but I don't know if he'll just tell me to come back in a month because that's when they start worrying about problems with walking. I'll call and ask the nurse. Meanwhile, I'm tired and my back aches and my shoulders hurt. I NEED a vacation!! Ok well, we all do

Girls Night Out

So a couple friends and I wound up going to Olive Garden on 10/16. Not much of a girls night out, but it's definitely more than I am accustomed to. We had a great time just laughing and talking. Now to set up one for next month.

When I came home, however, it looked like a tornado had hit the inside of my house. The kids didn't go to bed until 10pm and my husband was playing with the computer (updates or something). So I get him to clean up a bit and update my fb. He had the nerve to ask me why I got on face book! When I told him I wanted a night off, I specifically stated I was NOT cleaning when I got home, but I wanted it done... I got mad and left, and was back home withing 10 min. I can't stay gone. So I came home and we talked it out, but we'll see if he does better.  He has been so far.

I want to start jogging, but I'm not sure what time I should. Probably early morning, because it's cooler, but I'm definitely more of a night owl than anything else. Alright well, that's all for now. Will post more when I have time. Hard to find with 3 kids and a husband who sometimes just wants to be a kid. lol

My current life

Every time I try to plan something, something goes wrong. At least that's how it feels. I feel suffocated. I am currently a stay at home mom ready to go back to school to do what God is calling me to do. Be a counselor. I want to work to help support my family, but I have a clingy 16 month old and nobody is calling me back. I can't get out of the house. So what do I do. Suck it up and stop complaining? I know there are moms who have it worse, but I truly feel stuck. So I planned a girls night out. Last 2 or more times I planned something, one of the kids got sick. So I told my husband that even if all of them are sick I'm going out.
Just because I'm a mom doesn't mean that I have to be at home 24/7.
So I'm going out like I haven't in 4+ years. For fun.
I am excited.

My life

My life is a journey, and throughout this journey I've had many battles and struggles. I have grown in faith throughout.

I'm continuing to grow. God has been with me through and through. My girls are well-behaved (outside the home). They make messes like a tornado came through my house, but at least they behave for others. Right??? Hannah has straight A's. Isabelle ALWAYS has a smile on her face and LOVES to learn at preschool. And Jordan, you'd think she's still attached by umbilical cord. Only walks when mommys holding her hands. Always wants to be with mommy. Hates to be taken care of by anyone else, up until the minute I walk out the door. LOL. Such is the life of me...